FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.
Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 
I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

*

I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.
One step closer

One step closer
He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 
“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°
EPILOGUE
 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  

I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? ..

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  

“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”

That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 

I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 

I looked back at Steph whose eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.

Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 

I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises
How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more
*
I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.

 
One step closer

One step closer

He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 

“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

EPILOGUE

 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  
I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? 

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  
“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”
That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 
I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 
I looked back at Steph who’s eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

SIXTEEN 

HE PACED THE HALL FOR WHAT SEEM LIKE HOURS,  how could he lose her when he just had her,  for the last months he’d prayed fervently for her return he was quite disappointed with  her cold shoulder treatment, but he still loved her, her eyes seemed haunted when she returned but he didn’t want her to feel coerced to tell him what was wrong with her,  he just prayed it wasn’t something serious.
 

He wondered if it was about her spendings, he would gladly give her more she was extravagant by nature.

For all he cared she could spend whatever she wanted besides  he couldn’t spend all the money he made alone, that was why they were partners they are meant to help each.
  

He smashed his fist to the wall hissing in pain afterwards.  “Stop that Steph I understand you are impatient  but self harm will only delay our stay here,  let’s just pray for her” Mrs Yawson chastised..
  
He took short deep breaths  to relax himself then looked skyward closing his eyes.  

He wasn’t a church enthusiast but he was a firm believer of  miracles of the Lord,  He’d saved him in more ways than he could count and although he seldom prayed he wished with all his heart that Cassie will be saved. 

After patrolling almost every part of the  hallway he finally sat close to Mrs Yawson and held her hand tightly,  she looked at his fear stricken face and nodded.  She was scared herself,  Cassie was all she had she might have been angry when she left her husband for months but at the end of the day she was her little girl. 

They both bolted from their seats when the Doctor came out “Doctor what’s happening hope she’s okay” Steph asked hurriedly, the doctor looked over at where Mrs Yawson  was,  “She’s my daughter” she hurriedly  answered the unasked question,  “Well your wife had a miscarriage but it was a complicated one,  the foetus couldn’t settle in the uterus because of the IUD she had” Steph blinked in confusion how could she have an IUD when they have  never discussed family planning infact he’s been enthusiastic about having kids since the day they tied the knot. 

“She was lucky the foetus was only 8 weeks old or the split in her fallopian tube would have been worse” Steph slumped heavily on the chair from the sudden dizziness that hit him,  he felt like his brain was on fire, he was in a whole different world, how could she be 2 months pregnant when the last time they had intercourse was barely 4 months.

Mrs Yawson furrowed her brows in deep thought,  Cassie had not been in the country for over two months how could she be pregnant for her husband or did he meet up with Cassie somewhere.

He took in  deep breaths to slow his rapid heart beat.  Cassie couldn’t do that to him,  it was a mistake,  she was not two months pregnant, or could the semen stay in the womb for some time before fertilisation?.

***

She couldn’t look him in the eyes when he entered the room,  she’d feigned to be asleep the whole for the past 6 hrs,  whatever anesthesia she’d been injected with was suppose to wear off since morning. 

He sat on the stool at the head of the bed looking at her frail frame, she’d lost weight in the past 48 hours.  
She finally turned her face to him,  tears already running down her cheeks,  he finally knew her secret.
He shook his head when she opened her mouth,  “I’m not going to tell your mom” she was a bit relieved but couldn’t sigh,  the woman would have been disappointed, she knew she was a disappointment to her mom and herself,  she could never hold a candle to the woman who birthed her. 
Her dad left them when she was young but that didn’t deter the woman in any way.  She worked her back to give the best to her daughter. 

She tried to smile but burst into tears,  he marveled at his bravado he was boiling inside, but still pitied her,  her tears tore and soothed him at the same time,  he wished to just wake up and realize it was all a bad dream.
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FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

FIFTEEN .

TWO WEEKS LATER

 

IT’S BEEN TWO WEEKS SINCE I  CAME BACK HOME,  and my relationship with Steph has not improved in anyway,  I couldn’t muster the courage to tell him I’d slept with another man,  the jet lag coupled with guilt and the silent treatment I received from both mom and Nora was eating me up. 

Steph was getting fed up I could tell,  I’ve practically turned down all advances he’s made on me,  my conscience wouldn’t make me open up,  telling mom would be the worse mistake I’ll ever make,  with how furious she is now she won’t think twice before beating me to pulp,  Nora worked with Steph and she was also angry with me already,  she tends to act stupid when angry,  I can never tell if she’ll run to mom or Steph with the news after I tell her. 

I sighed in frustration and fell backwards on the bed almost  bumping my head on the headboard,  I’ve never deemed myself perfect,  I know I’ve always despised working and poverty,  I might have married Steph for the wrong reasons but the guy has supported me even when he was the one being treated unfairly by me. 

Not once has he ever complained on my spendings,  I don’t know the amount he stacks in my account but not once has it ever run out even when I went on the doomed voyage spree.

‘You knew that all along but still cheated on him’ the humane part of my conscience chastised,  I made up my mind then to tell him the truth,  he at least deserved the truth from me.

 This relationship has been one sided anyway,  the only time I showed him love was before marriage .
I rose from the bed and made way to the closet,  then stopped when I remembered everything there was bought by him.

God, mom never raised me to be like this she was a strong independent woman, she has worked day and night just so I’ll get a good education,  yet look how I’ve turned out. 

I walked to the bathroom and showered,  Steph was almost home I had to finish up before he came. 

I wore a simple knee length white dress, then took my phone,  there was no need for makeup or anything and the little balance I had on my mobile money account should be enough to support me for a few weeks. 

I frowned when I heard a car pull up at the lot,  Steph was home already I  had to get this thing over and done with. 
I held the banister looking down to the front door,  then started descending the stairs when I saw the knob turn. I made it downstairs before he came in. 

The house was quiet,  I went to the kitchen when I heard the thud of his shoes, the fridge was stocked up with soups and stews and occasional left overs,  I poured a cup of rice in the rice cooker to cook then took  a bowl of stew from the fridge to heat. 

Maybe he’d be more understanding after eating,  I heaved a sigh and went to the living room again, he had  gone upstairs then,  I sat on the couch contemplating whether  to follow him there then convince him to join me or just forget about the matter all together besides there was no way I could get pregnant.  
I looked around the house, admiring the architectural prowess of whoever designed it,  it might also  be the last I’m seeing it too.

I then went upstairs to the master bedroom.  He was lying on the bed with both hands covering his face.  I admired his handsome stature and wondered why I never fell for him like I was suppose to. 

I cleared my throat and smiled when he removed his hands  from his face. He seemed surprised but smiled back and patted the space next to him I shook my head and beckoned him to stand with my index finger,  I burst in laughter when he started twisting his lips sideways looking skyward like he was in deep thought. 
“To whom  does this humble servant hold the honor to be  visited by this beautiful angel”

“God Steph your food will get cold” I said a bit exasperated,  “And she cooked for me Hallelujah” he threw his hands in the air as if he was giving  testimony. 

I suddenly became saddened by his reaction, he is suppose to be angry with me,  I’ve never cooked for him.  “I only cooked the rice though” I felt the need to remind him as we made our way downstairs.

 I made him sit at the dinning area then went to the kitchen to bring the food. 

***

He might have felt me tense when he took the first bite,  he closed his eyes as he chowed the food moaning and nodding,  “will have to tell you this is the most delicious food I’ve ever tasted” I shook my head and chuckled: “at this juncture I know you are lying Steph I only boiled the rice and it was in the rice cooker,  stop exaggerating”  he chuckled and shook his head then brought a spoonful to my mouth “Come on ahhh” I smiled and opened my lips,  I wonder if he’ll be this way after I tell him what really happened. 

………

I came back and sat on the chair I was occupying after I’d finished washing the plates. 

Steph was typing something on his phone but placed it down immediately I took my seat. 

“Steph I’m sorry for all that I’ve made you gone through,  I’ve not been a good wife and ……”

I closed my eyes tightly when I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen,  my head started throbbing and my vision blurry . 
Lord if it’s my time to die, please grant me a little time to ask for forgiveness.

FOR BETTER FOR BEST

FOURTEEN

Cassie

I stood at the baggage lounge waiting to for my luggage to be cleared, I couldn’t ward off the uneasiness that settled at the pit of my stomach, what awaited me at home.
I know they’d be worried, a vacation I’d planned to go for two weeks had turned to being more than a month away.

What would I tell them kept me long?, Steph might be a bit understanding but how would I get mom to understand and Nora too, I owed her an explanation, I know she’s the one to bear all the grilling whiles I was away: Steph would have probably gone to her or mom by now to enquire about my whereabouts if he’s back from his trips.

I heaved a sigh as I pulled my bag by the handle and made way to the taxi rank.

I glanced through the cars, searching for a more suitable car to take me home, there was no way I was pulling up in front of my house with a car which looks like it might break out in the middle of the road.

I settled on a red and yellow painted Kia Sorento, the colour was the only give off that it was a taxi, everything else looked brand new. I looked at the bush of drivers who seemed to be in a hot argument and motioned to the car, the driver made it to the car before me and opened the trunk hurriedly shoving my luggage in before opening the passenger door for me.

I shook my head and opened the back door instead then rested my head on the headrest as I thought of how I was going to handle the situation.

••°°°••…°…°°•…°°°•…°•°•…°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°…

The house was very quiet when I entered I went straight to the guest room, arranged my clothes in the closet and then laid on the bed a bit to rid myself of the jet lag.

I woke up after what seems like hours of rest and  entered the bathroom,  our guestrooms were already stocked with brushes, sponges and toothpaste so I went by my normal morning routine before making my way downstairs. 

It was late evening and Awura Abena was mopping the kitchen floor when,  I cleared my throat when I got closer to her, She turned abruptly almost losing her balance and the grip she had on the mop.  

Her eyes widened like saucers as her mouth widened agape,  she closed it then as if her mind just registered my presence she squealed and called Steph’s name “Sir!” she shouted,  I frowned and shook my head “Welcome back ma” she ran towards Steph’s home office after welcoming me. 

I shook my head and rolled my eyes then entered the kitchen to fix something for myself to eat. 
I rolled my eyes when I heard the shuffling in the living room and focused on the carton of milk and bowl of cereal. 
“Cassia?” he called questioningly,  I closed my eyes as his reverberated through my body,  then the face of Timone flashed through my mind. 

I felt his hands on mine, I opened my eyes, then pulled away,  I couldn’t let him touch my body when I’ve made another man done same,  “I -” I shook my head and held my hand up stopping him mid sentence,  then forced a smile on my face. 
“Let me eat when I’m done you can ask me whatever you want to know”
He seemed taken aback by my nonchalant attitude but he was quiet,  he stood up and walked out of the room I heaved a sigh I didn’t even know I was holding.  If only he knew what had happened he’d not even wish to be anywhere  near  me. 

I blinked back the tear that threatened to fall from my eyes, now wasn’t the time to cry I’ve wallowed way too much in this sorrow, it was time to get over it and tell Steph the truth. 

Can she tell the truth though. Should infidelity in anyway be forgiven?  What if the person really regrets his actions? 

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

FORÇA BARÇA 🔴🔵💪

TWELVE

I switched for a Morrocan visa which was granted to me  without delay,  if Steph was indeed in Dubai, going there will only be a damper on my expeditions, I want to experience everything I  can now, exploit a bit before the end of my five years break.

From Marrakesh to Rabat then right straight to the streets and shops of Milan I couldn’t get over the immense euphoria I  felt especially when I go skydiving or sightseeing  and then the ultimate of them all SHOPPING. 

I bought just about everything and nothing from expensive jewelleries to the cheapest crinkets and charms, everything was a snap of a finger away creating my very own paradise right on earth.
  The five star hotel was an addendum, room service was immaculate,  and the in-house masseuse I  could call up was quite incredible.  I had my mini spa treatment right in my room without going out.  

Living the rich luxurious life I could never imagine much less dream of cos there was no way I’d have even a  flash of this life in my dream when I’ve never thought of  it. 

It also came with a huge casino and club downstairs at the ground floor Monaco was indeed a city worth living. The clubs and  hotels were literally places you could die for I’d never regret spending my last dime in this place. 

I went downstairs dressed in a dark mid thigh body con with my 6 inches high heels, my make up was over the notch,  I decided to go for a bold red lips to go with my bright makeup.

I went  straight to the  jackpot immediately I  entered the club,  I’m still yet to try the cards, who knows,  I could be lucky like I was at Vienna City.
 This one seems to be more complicated than Vienna’s jackpots though it was much  sophisticated,  I rolled my eyes when I finally figured where the slot was and slotted my money  through.  My head turned  with all the rumblings it made after I’d pressed on almost every button on it then it pinged,  the reels were mismatched,  that meant I didn’t win anything I rolled my eyes tsking at how annoying the whole experience had been. 

I had wasted my precious time and money I could have just danced and gone back upstairs with totally no harm done. 
 I left the area and walked over to the bar, I gently placed my purse on the cabinet  and sighed before hoisting  up the long stool. I ordered for  tequila shots with lime.  I swiped my  tongue around the salty sugary powder coated on the rim of the glass before shoving the drink down my throat.  I closed my eyes at the burn in my throat which had me feeling warm all over then went out to the dance floor.  
I felt someone behind me “You are such a good dancer”a voice appraised behind me as he started grinding on me,  I stiffened and pulled away,   “Sorry if I came onto you like that I was captivated by your beauty” he apologized in his thick accent,  “I’m Timone” he said holding his palm  to his chest, “Please let me treat you to a drink” I smiled a bit and nodded, I didn’t miss the sigh that skipped his mouth,   We went over to the bar  and ordered drinks. 

I laughed at Timone’s attempt to  translate  the names of the drinks in English, I made a note to try the “volcano” he  recommended. 

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My head felt like it had been plucked from my head then bounced to and fro a wall,  it might probably erupt anytime soon,  what’s happening ? I slowly opened my closed lids but it felt like huge boulders were placed on it, I rolled to my side and closed my eyes scared I might burst an eye if I shut it too tightly. 

After what felt like days I woke up with a throbbing head. 

A man in his shorts laid sprawled on the farthest part of the bed,  I blinked trying to clear off the fog that had clogged my mind, but he just won’t  disappear,  WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?  and not fully clothed too,  this is not happening, I’m I really capable of acting this way, all I remember is asking for a Volcano,  why was T- I closed my eyes again what the hell was his name,  why was he in the same bed with me?. 

I held my head as the thud increased this time along with my tummy,  bile filled my mouth, I forced myself to rise from the bed,  but didn’t make it to the bathroom,  I emptied everything on the tiled floor of the room. 

Whathas Casse got herself into? Did she really sleep with Timone, let me know what you think 😉.

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

Value what you have now, for you never know when you might lose it. 

ELEVEN. 

I heaved a sigh when I got home and there was no sign of Steph,  then frowned remembering what Steve had told me,  for all I know he only knew two people in this country Steph and me, and I could quite remember him promising to do business with Steph, so if Steph is not home why the hell is Steve here.  I ran to his home office and he was not there,  then checked every other  room in the house which also turned futile,  maybe he’s just not back yet and Steve was playing games with me.  He could definitely pull such a stunt, the man practically had no inkling of seriousness in him,  this was just a figment of his character I know he’s much worse. 
I rolled my eyes and did my nightly routine knocking out immediately I laid my head on my pillow. 

I was surprised when I opened my eyes to see Steph lying behind me with his hand draped over my body,  I blinked numerously then touched his face to  see if I was hallucinating,  I was caught off guard with the tug at both ends of my  my lips and the kiss I planted on his face, maybe I missed him more than I let on.

 I think I might have awakened  him with my touches, when just a touch wasn’t enough,  I felt his hand tighten   around my body then a trail of  wet kisses followed.

I closed my eyes losing myself to  the euphoria only he could take me. 

I woke up early in the morning and there was totally no trace of him,  I blinked several times trying to decipher  if all that I had experienced was indeed  a dream.  I bathed and dressed in one of my loose clothes,  a white knee length dress,  then went downstairs in search for breakfast. 

The house was very quiet, it was apparent Awura Abena was still not back and I was a bit amazed when I felt a bit lonely, the house was clean though. 

 I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge taking the bowl of fruits out, I washed  it with fresh water before taking a  seat on one of the long stools eating it as I  sliced it. 

I thought on how I was going to  spend the day. 

I called Nora but it went straight to voicemail,  I threw the phone on the kitchen island huffing in frustration,who knew  marriage could be so boring , I really needed to go on a vacation , I  ran back upstairs for my bag and phone,  ‘maybe I could find an interesting site to visit’, I noticed a note sticked to the side of the dressing mirror, I frowned in confusion as I  looked at it,  was I so lost in thought before that I didn’t notice it even though the mirror is the first thing I  looked at after waking up. 
I removed it from the  mirror and read the message that was obviously written by Steph 

I missed you honey wanted to surprise you with breakfast but I had an urgent call at the office I  promise to make it up to you when I get home”

Lots of love,

Steph xo


I sighed in both  relief and frustration,  last night felt so real I was a bit disappointed when I woke up to an empty bed,  this only meant he was really here, but what boggles my mind is the fact that I didn’t see him after I came from the club, was he at home then?,  I shook my head and shoved the paper and phone in my purse,  I’ll just have to find out when we meet. 

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Steph really made it up to me after we met later that day, he took me to a newly opened italian restaurant then treated me to a spa the following morning but yet again he had to leave later that day. 

I couldn’t be more proud of him and myself, married to a young affluent man who came from virtually nothing and treated me like a queen,  living a life that most ladies in my circle envied, was definitely a life worth living with pride. 
2 weeks on

I met up with Nora today and she looked much better than the last time I saw her,  she was wearing a white   midi dress with a white coat over it,  I frowned a bit at her cherry red lips and red pumps,  “See who’s here, the ultimate snubber” I said as I made my way to her meeting her halfway. The girl has only picked two of my calls in the last two or three weeks,  I hugged her tightly kissing her cheek then pulled away quickly before she could stain my face with her lipstick.

“You look beautiful” I said sincerely she smiled widely and nodded looking away a bit “I’m sorry for snubbing you” she said rolling her eyes a bit as we walked back to the couch “But I’ve been very busy with work and you know with the kind of progress we are making we work twice as hard” “I kind of understand I mean Steph is barely in the country I can’t imagine the kind of pressure you undergo each day” as if on cue her phone tinged, “excuse me” she said as she looked at  the screen smiling widely at whatever was written on her screen, I wonder if she was back with that her good for nothing boyfriend “So?” I asked when she turned her gaze back to me her already widened lips widened if possible, I bet  she would  have been a watt too bright if she was a bulb “Well I met this guy last week at work and I think I’m falling for him”  I forced a smile on my face though I wasn’t a huge fan of this supposed “LOVE”I still had to support her “Ok” I said a bit enthusiastic to hide the doubt I really felt “Can’t wait to meet him,  what’s he like” that was the opening she needed the real Nora (Miss animated chatterbox)  made an appearance and I  somehow wished I could plunge my head in the deep sea.
“So what do you do now? I mean I really know you Casse, you can hardly stay at  a place for long not to talk of being a  full-time housewife” I sighed dropping the charade I put up when she started talking about her new found love “I’ll be leaving for Dubai tomorrow” I replied, her eyes widened in surprise then she squinted them, as if I was up to some mischief “Are you going to  meet up with Steph there?,  he’s there to secure a deal you naughty girl” she gasped and widened her eyes again fanning her face “You are pregnant right?” I frowned and shook my head,  I was getting annoyed with all these pregnancy issue,  why does everything I do has evolve around  pregnancy. 

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

TEN 💕

Since our return from the honeymoon Steph seemed to be having a breakthrough with his company, he was opening branches in even francophone West African countries,  so I rarely saw him,  he was seldom in the country and even when he came back from his trips  he’s mostly at work  before I wake up, the annoying part is he works on weekends. My fear of dropping the IUD or complicating things hindered my plans but it’s been 3 months now and the implant has somehow made my irregular monthly discharge normal. Unearthing my old self prodded  my mind the more as each day passed.

Finally its Saturday night,  my body felt rejuvenated  from the week long pampering, I dressed in a  midi backless  body con which fitted like a glove, I had given Awura Abena the day off so I had the house to myself with the exception of the 2 guards. I locked up and took one of the luxurious  cars  Steph had added to his collection in the past months.  I had lots of options but tonight going to Vienna City held a lot of intrigue, I might be lucky with their jackpots or even try out the casino. 

One thing I loved about the place is it’s not utterly packed, though  Saturdays are  an exemption,  I walked into the club knowing I’d garner as little attention as I could cos my clothing was modest compared to others I walked straight to the bar and ordered my drink,  I nodded in appreciation when the tender  placed my cold drink in front of me, then turned to the dance floor were bodies were swamped swaying to the rhythm,  I could feel the rhythm pounding through my system the heat emanated by the  cold drink only added to the rhythmic pound,  the last time I’d been at a club was in Joburg and this place as much rivalled with the club I went.  My eyes moved upstairs to where the casino was, maybe I should try my luck with the slot machines then I can have   party really hard.

I looked at the people lined up in front of the machines and frowned in confusion then watched the guy adjacent me mimicking his actions, I pulled the handle when I saw him do same and sat up in my chair watching the reels rumble.  ‘What in God’s name have I just done’ I  wondered staring cluelessly at the reels.  I was surprised when I  saw money come out of the machine,  the guy beside me turned and smiled at me, I nodded back and happily took the money, it wasn’t quite the jackpot but I made 500 cedis and considering I  earned it with a much lesser amount it was worth it. 

“Would you like to try the table?” I heard a voice ask behind me,  I turned and it was probably a croupier dressed in a white long sleeved shirt with a bow tie and black pants,  out to convince me to join the game.  I shook my head and  stacked the money in my purse as I made my way to the dance floor,  I closed my eyes as I stood under the dim disco lights swaying  to  Rihanna’s ‘WORK’ .  

“I can tell your beautiful  body from a room stacked with like beauties who can’t surpass you” I stiffened at the familiar voice racking my brain of where I’d heard it.  He splayed his hands on my tummy thrusting  his body behind  me forcing me to move “Go on beauty I’d like to continue what we started in SA before your husband interrupted” I turned abruptly hitting his mouth in the process. My eyes widened when I saw  Steve,  I opened my mouth then clamped it shut again “What are you doing here?”  I finally managed to ask looking around like someone who’d been caught red-handed he cocked his head to the bar smirking as he removed his hand from his lip. 

I watched him warily as I walked with him to the bar,  then did a double check looking around to see if Steph will pop out from somewhere “What are you doing here?” I asked again frowning at the permanent smirk he seemed to have developed.  “The same thing you came here to do” 
  I rolled my eyes and squinted my eyes watching him carefully he signalled for the tender to bring us drinks then turned to me with the annoying smirk again “I’m here for business and I didn’t see anything wrong with topping it with a  bit of pleasure” he retorted looking me up and licking his lips, I shook my head sympathetically the guy will definitely get an A+ in flirting,  “And is this deal in anyway related to my husband?” I asked turning my ring so he could remember I was wedded. I didn’t miss the sudden movement of his eye to my fingers and the stupid grin making a reappearance, then he nodded.  That had me worried Steph never told me he was coming back,  there was going to be a launch party though I don’t really know what it’s about all I knew was it was making waves in the media was it why Steve was here?. I shook my head and drifted my eyes back to him,  forcing  a smile on my face. 

“I have  to go Steve see you later” he nodded then stood up too I frowned when he walked to me and held my arm gently guarding me to  the door, “Let  me escort you to your car” he whispered in my ears when he  noticed my resistance.

I managed to pull from his hold and sprinted to my car when we got outside leaving a surprised Steve by the entrance. 

Steve is back and Steph is making more money hope Cassie doesn’t fret, I mean Steph is making big bucks,  what’s ur take do u think she can be lured money and the gambling too😣

For Better For Best 

This page is in memory of these amazing souls Aisha Abdullahi Idris, Bariyat and Mufeeda  May Allah grant u the highest level of Jannah and forgive all your sins, along with all our departed souls. 
Aameen

Nine 💕

Mom was ecstatic when she saw me,  “Come see my daughter” she bellowed to her workers as I entered the shop,  “she’s the prettiest and smartest”, I widened my already tugged lips baring almost every tooth.  My eyes widened in shock when she pulled me into a tight embrace, I relaxed as bit and rested my head on her shoulder. “Welcome back home my daughter” she whispered as she pulled away from the hug. I cringed inwardly at how her eyes skimmed over my body,  I felt like my body was under an X-ray machine,  then shook her head. 

“How was your trip?” she asked as  we walked farther into the shop,  “Cynthia please be more attentive I’ll be inside if you need me” she ordered one of her workers as she ushered me to her office, I looked around impressed with how organized the place was, “I’m impressed” I uttered looking back at her,  she nodded smiling widely. My eyes came back to the huge desk which had pictures of her, Steph and I at the wedding and other childhood pictures of mine.

I cringed at the sudden fall of her smile  replaced with a small frown, “Cassie how are things going?” she asked looking at me worriedly, “everything is cool” I answered smiling a bit,  “When will you start working?” she asked again, this meant I  was going to be getting an earful of another long lecture, mom just doesn’t understand that not all women are career driven “I’m still working on it” I replied knowing answering was better than keeping mute, mom was just one of those women who never age,  she sometimes treated me like I was a teen all over again, she shook her head disapprovingly. “Are you pregnant?” she asked again looking into my eyes I wished I could vanish into thin air then,  mom is so anti contraceptives,  she complained that she was the only one her mom gave birth to and she counted herself lucky she was even able to have me. 
I swallowed hard feeling like she could see what I  did, I bet mom could have made it to the top security service in the country,  “No,  I don’t think so” I stuttered, she nodded “Mom I feel pressured by Steph already please don’t pressure me too” she nodded tightening her hold on my hand,  “I’m very proud of you Cassie, but I’d really like for you to work,  or is Steph the one preventing you from doing so?” she added  her voice taking on a worried note,  I shook my head in response “it’s not that mom,  you really know I hate working for someone and I don’t want to start now,  Steph is already pressuring me on this pregnancy thing so I want to  have a child or two then start something later on” she opened her mouth then clamped it shut and nodded, “I hope you really know what you are doing” she muttered, I slowly pulled my hands from hers and checked the face of  my wrist watch,  “I might ran late mom I want to go ran some errands before going home” I widened my eye when I  felt her hands tightly clasped around my body then relaxed in her touch again,  I can’t count on  even one hand the number of times mom has hugged me since I reached puberty, maybe my graduation and wedding,  she was too busy being strict and warning me of getting pregnant. “Take care of yourself and your husband Cassie, I’d have really liked for you to work but I’d rather you give me grand babies now so I can spoil them rotten”

I smiled feeling more fake than ever,  here I am a graduate only 23 who should be out there working like every other 23 year old girl  who is likely partying I missed that part,  I should be partying living the life a real 23 year old  is suppose to be living, partying, travelling dating handsome men who have lots of money to spend on me,  mom, I only married for you to get off my back and Steph was too good for me to give up,  sorry to burst your bubble mom  but I’m not ready for a baby yet. 
She escorted me to my car, I looked at her through the rearview mirror, she was still standing at the gate of the shop waving at me,  I smiled and bit appreciating the  strength of the woman who birthed me,  she might have been strict on me,  and I might still have a  bit of dislike for the way I was brought up but I can’t deny that she’s a woman with the spine of steel who has wanted nothing but the best for me. 
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Let’s take a moment to appreciate our parents especially our moms for being the superwomen they are and supporting us in everything we do. 

And please guys let’s appreciate the pple around us we can never tell  the last time we might see them. 

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

Happy Independence Day fellow country men and women, we shall forever set the pace for other African countries to follow 🇬🇭🇬🇭🇬🇭. Long live Gh🇬🇭💕

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I want to say a big shout out to all women across the globe, you are the reason the the world is rotating keep on being the best version of yourself 

And to the greatest team in history, giving us the greatest come back ever and restoring hope in me I  say thank you Barcelona 🔴🔵🔴🔵😭💕💕💞.

EIGHT 💕

I hated that I  couldn’t see Nora,  I drove directly home,  stressing myself about  the implant, could my body at any point resist the implant?  I didn’t know that for sure but I  don’t plan to see it either. 

The help was bent on the dinning table probably arranging the dishes, I tsked and walked away she hurriedly turned around and greeted me, I nodded in reply and stood for a bit when a pang of pain hit through my abdomen “Your supper is ready ma’am” she added politely I hissed a bit then tsked walking to my room. 

I wonder what she thought I was, maybe I looked like a glutton to her,  the foolish girl expected me to eat supper after all the snacks I’d consumed, I’d probably turn into a hippo by next week. 

 I sighed and threw my bag on the floor,  then lied on the bed as slowly as I could. 

It felt like a breeze had blown some of the pain away. Steph was home late that day justifying my actions the more when he didn’t seek me out,  he locked himself up in his study the whole night and I’m a very light sleeper a creak of the door would have awakened me. 

I woke up   in the morning more grumpier than the day before, the house help I could tell was calling me all sought of names in her head cos I’d snarl at the slightest provocation, I knew what I was doing wasn’t right but she had to be a part of my vengeance. 

I called Nora when it was midday and couldn’t hide my joy when I met up with her at the spa,  she looked prettier but seemed to have added on a little weight,  I shrieked in joy and launched myself at her raining kisses on her face. “I really missed you Nora” I uttered repeatedly in between kisses, she pulled herself and looked me over then her squeal exclamations started “Casse do you really see yourself!, you look radiant and are you pregnant? You are glowing” she added making me frown a bit, then roared in a bout of laughter “No I’m not pregnant silly” I replied holding out my bent arm for her to cuff her hands in.  I smiled at her and walked into the spa listening to her chatter about how boring her life had been when I was away and her break up with her on and off boyfriend,  I knew better than to tell her to leave him cos she will go right back to him when he comes back. 
“So how is marriage life?” she asked as we lied face down on the massage bed I huffed and closed my eyes reveling in the relaxing touch of the masseuse,  “Well it’s fun” I replied simply. She was quiet for a bit which had me amazed cos Nora is one to ask subsequent questions and those subsequents could go on forever. “I want to start working,  I mean I don’t want my degree to go to waste” she said hurriedly, I was shocked at her revelation all we’ve ever talked about was traveling the world what happened to that.  “Wow” I encouraged in forced cheeriness, what happened to our voyage to every nook and cranny we could go, I wanted to retort but kept mute. And what did she need the job for she was well off, an only child too so all her parents fortune was going to her did she really need to work?. 

I sighed and shook my head as  if that would clear all those thoughts from my mind,  what was the point of having lots of wealth if you can’t spend it, money is made to be spent and I would not have  left a dime unspent if I were in her position. 
We went shopping after that and I was happy to  know she still enjoyed going shopping she was more of a shoe and bag person, she’d wear an  African print which mostly doesn’t cost over a hundred cedis but the bags had to be expensive,  she’d go all the way for a giuseppe shoe and bag or Louboutin or any of  the designer brands whiles I prefer  going  all the way from my clothes, bags, shoes downright to accessories had to be designer. 

Nora’s mouth was wide agape with some of the choices I made “Don’t you think this is a bit too short I mean it has lots of cut offs the fabric left can barely hold your body together” she complained when I took a YSL cut off dress from the rack “Ama don’t be ridiculous” I complained using her native name “Being married doesn’t mean I don’t get to do as I want or that brings an end to my youthful years ‘No’ it means I should dress up the more so my husband’s eyes won’t wander anywhere” I added lowering my voice when I realized we had caught the attention of some of the shoppers.

We ate a late lunch before going back to my house discussing  everything and nothing,  “I’ll go see mom tomorrow” I announced cringing when she shoved a huge spoonful of ice cream in her mouth.  I wonder when Nora turned into this she was already a bit fat eating all this extra calories was just going to  make her gain more  weight. I shook my head and sipped my green leaf smoothie, “You really have to, she missed you a lot” I rolled my eyes, knowing mom, she was probably too busy with her shop, the old lady had worked enough whiles raising me,  selling everything she could in the scorching sun,  but she never gave up on me, gave me the best of education and when I asked her to stop working she stopped talking to me all together. It was a bit embarrassing when mom did her petty tradings  when I was in school but there was no way she’d take money from me when I was still in school, she said I didn’t work and I somehow think she knew about my lifestyle. I shook my head to ward off the thought. 

All that mattered was mom was now in her huge super market and that kept her occupied and satisfied. We were not poor anymore and we’ll never be.