FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.
Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 
I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

*

I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.
One step closer

One step closer
He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 
“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°
EPILOGUE
 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  

I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? ..

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  

“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”

That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 

I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 

I looked back at Steph whose eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.

Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 

I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises
How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more
*
I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.

 
One step closer

One step closer

He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 

“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

EPILOGUE

 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  
I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? 

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  
“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”
That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 
I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 
I looked back at Steph who’s eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

I dedicate this page to ma dear friend Elijah happy belated birthday, we’re gonna make it. Thanks for giving me so much hope, opportunities and for just being you,  may the good Lord  throw bountiful blessings your way throughout the super  long years you have ahead.

Much love 

Meena 🌹👸🇬🇭

Seven 💕

Steph 

It seems the fog I’ve forcefully plunged my mind in was clearing up,  and it was doing so really fast.  Memories I’ve locked in the darkest part of my mind slowly unleashed creeping into my thoughts and I could not control myself. 

    I’m no longer the scared kid but it seems I’ve been scarred for life. I looked at Cassie’s  turned back then looked away. 

    The old lady’s words whispered in my ear,  it could never be, no torture or pain could surpass the one I’ve been through as a kid. I closed my eyes and pulled Cassie into a tight embrace warding off all thoughts of my past. 

    Cassie 

    Marriage, the life long prison I’ve detested since I was a teen, as I grew older my perspective on marriage never change but altered. 

     I promised myself a fun marriage life, my spouse had to be wealthy or wealthy  and had the potential to be richer. Even though I’ve never dated an age mate,  I always engaged in relationships with rich older men the only disadvantage was I couldn’t marry one,  even when I had such men at my beck and call who’d have readily walked down the aisle without batting an eye, I couldn’t deny the fact that  they were all tied up in a way, some had other mistresses, others   had wives while some  had kids who’d only be a nuisance to me. The men would have  probably     died too early into the marriage.  So Steph became my only option,  he was young, intelligent and handsome. 

    I didn’t love him but he was a better option and an upgrade to  the older men and even some young men who showed interest in me, we all foresaw a brighter future for him,  he had companies chasing him even when we were in school that only heightened my interest in him,  and he had no one. No ties to any family that also  meant I would be the only one who’d enjoy the fruits of his hardwork and above all mom liked him. 

       She knew how much I detested marriage so bringing  Steph to the house was a surprise to her. She couldn’t hide her joy she  called  him asew (in-law)  before he even proposed, how could I deny the wishes  of a woman who has sacrificed so much for me. 

    ***
    Steph was not home when I woke up, today marked the rebirth of Cassie Yawson. I went through my morning routine as slow as I could gathering my thoughts to the big plan.  Nora was probably at work now,  I took my phone hovering my thumb  over her number as I contemplated if calling her was the best idea.  With what  I had in mind calling her would be a huge mistake.  I tapped the exit pad and placed the phone down. 

     Gently slathering my body with my body lotion, I would be seeing a doctor today, go shopping and probably call Nora to catch up. 
    I was surprised when I heard movement in the kitchen for all I knew we lived alone.  My breath became shallow as I tiptoed to the kitchen I peeked inside the kitchen hiding my body behind the wall. I sighed when I saw a lady in a uniform with an apron over it.  I entered the kitchen clearing my throat as I made way to the dinning area.  I preferred using the dinning area to the dinning room, it looked more casual. 

    She turned around a bit shocked but smiled when her eyes met mine “Good morning madam,  welcome” I nodded stretching my lips in return. “What’s your name?” I asked curtly her smile faltered, I almost rolled my eyes when she swallowed “Awura Abena maa” I rolled my eyes a bit and walked to the table.  She brought all my favorite fruits the very moment I  took my seat and placed them gently on the table, I ate a bit of  every fruit before drinking the cup of creamy tea she had made for me. 

    It seemed Steph had already briefed her about all my likes before leaving. My lip quirked a bit when I remember what happened yesterday. I heaved a sigh and rose from the table,  today was going to be long day. 
    I went back to the bedroom for my bag and phone, I opened one of the drawers and took one of his car keys,  I tapped on my phone to see if I had any missed calls but there was none.  

    I drove straight to the hospital,  I didn’t have to wait in a  long queue since it was a private hospital.  I heaved a sigh when I finally made it to  the doctor’s office. 

    “Good afternoon” I greeted as I took my seat opposite her. “Good afternoon welcome” she looked down on my file and looked back up at me “Mrs Botchway I can see you want to have an IUD” I nodded in response,  “Are you sure about this?” she asked worriedly  eyeing my ring “We normally do this kind of things in the presence of your partner” “No  it’s okay” I quickly uttered before she could bombard me with another question. 
    “We will have to ran some test on you and  then take you through the types of IUDs we have” I nodded in response, as she rang in the nurse, the nurse came in with a pregnancy  kit  went through the process to use it with me and ushered me to the bathroom, my hands were shaky as I held it,  I was sure I couldn’t be pregnant but anything could happen many pregnancies happened even when the ladies were on contraceptives. 

    I closed my eyes after urinating praying to all I held dear to make the results negative, I came out of the bathroom and reclaimed  my seat, the next minutes went by agonizingly slow   I heaved a sigh when the  nurse finally came out with the test but I  was still nervous.  The doctor nodded and turned the negative test sign to me.  
    “Do you have a regular menstrual cycle?” Dr Jefferson asked after the nurse left.  “No it’s irregular” she nodded and wrote something on the file “what of your flow is it normal or heavy?” I  rolled my eyes a bit “it’s mostly heavy although I  do have normal flows sometimes” she nodded again scribbling on the file  then looked up, “Well we do two  types of IUDs here  The mirena intrauterine device and the palagard copper IUD, the mirena IUD is for five years and  mostly deals  with hormones whiles the palagard is  for a longer period ten years to be  exact,   but with your situation I recommend the Mirena,  it regulates your cycle and also lessen  the cramp”,

     I nodded  contemplating on which one  to choose, “which one is more effective” I asked nervously chewing on my lips, “they are all effective we are 99% percent sure you won’t  be pregnant with either one you choose” I  sighed and nodded.  “I want the mirena” I uttered,  she smiled and nodded then called the nurse in again,  I was given the loose hospital gown to change into,  the nurse helped me on the bed the pulled my gown up “this is going to be a bit cold” the doctor warned before applying a gel on my tummy, she then placed a wand on my stomach and started moving it around, “Well that’s your uterus she said pointing to the screen. 

    “I wanted to be sure if you had a big uterus cos IUDs tend to come off but everything looks good in here” I nodded and closed my eyes as they inserted the T shaped object inside me. 
    “You’ll feel a bit uneasy cos it’s a bit foreign to you but it shouldn’t hurt and we’re 99%  percent sure you won’t fall pregnant  with this kind of IUD, it has its hormonal effects but you can come over if you feel any unusual feeling”

    I left the doctor’s feeling a whole lot better, I won’t be tied down in anyway the next five years and  I’m living my life to the fullest. 

    ** 

    Sorry for the late post but I really need your prayers my mom will be undergoing surgery tomorrow.  Hope it will be successful.