FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.
Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 
I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

*

I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.
One step closer

One step closer
He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 
“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°
EPILOGUE
 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  

I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? ..

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  

“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”

That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 

I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 

I looked back at Steph whose eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

A year on……

SIXTEEN B

Cassie 

For better for best I’ve always sought, I had the best and held it loosely afraid holding it tight would make it mean more than it was. 

Totally clueless its worth was beyond my imagination. We obsess so much for worldly desires which only tends to makes us lose focus on our main purpose. 

The love of money makes us do so many absurdities which not only does the society frown on but the creator. 

Losing Steph has been the most painful thing I’d ever  endured, I would gladly  go through another surgery with no anesthetia to numb  the pain for the outer pain felt like a prick to the pain I felt inside.

Nora and mom took care of me at the hospital but didn’t talk to me,  it took a failed  suicide for them to realize I was depressed. 

I slowly wiped the tears that had made it to my cheek, my retribution is the love I now feel for him,  and being practically a zombie. 

The only thing I do is go to my mom’s shop when I have nothing to do at my farm. 

I took off the dirty gloves from my hand and washed them,  mom and I were throwing a surprise birthday party for Nora. 

I called the event planner as I drove into the city, she confirmed everything was ready.

  I frowned a bit when I got to the venue,  the place was eerily quiet,  it was almost time so people would troop in soon and from what I could make out no progress had been made,  I called again but the call went unanswered. 

I called mom’s line, it also went unanswered,  I was so  close  to losing my temper now. 

I opened the car door and walked out looking around if I could find anyone,  I walked straight to the door and was surprised to find it ajar. Maybe robbers attacked them,  the little light gleaming from my phone was what helped me move around. 

With the help of my phone I looked around the wall if I  could make out where the switch was, the room suddenly lit up.  I was surprised to find my name engraved symmetrically on the wall.

I tsked and started dialling the event planner’s number again. 

Maybe she made a mistake. 

                    ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises
How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more
*
I closed my eyes when the fragrance I’ve yearned for what seemed like eternity wafted through  my nostril as  Christina Perri’s song played in the background. I dragged a long breath giving in to the deception of my sense. 

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

“My life has been on a standstill since the day  I left you at the hospital” 

I turned abruptly almost losing my balance.  My senses seem to be in overdrive today my ears, eyes and nostrils seem to have taken the job away from my mind today  ,  I was the one at fault and I’ve regretted it with every breath I’ve taken in the past year.

 
One step closer

One step closer

He moved forward, and held my hand,  my eyes widened I tightened my hands around his,  “Please forgive me Steph,  don’t leave me again,  I regret all that I’ve done”  I touched his face, his beard seem to have thickened, he wrapped his arms around me I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes, I reopened them looking up to his face afraid he might disappear if I kept them closed. 

“I’ll not leave,  sorry for punishing us this much” he whispered, wiping tears I didn’t even know I was shedding,  he  kissed my head as we slowly danced to the last part of the  song.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

                ° …•…°…•…°…•…°

EPILOGUE

 I stood at the side of the altar in my  peach colored maiden of honor gown watching as my best friend got hitched to the player now turned committed fian-no husband.. I smiled at Steph, he looked very handsome  in his suit, I fanned my eyes to prevent the tear at the brink of my eyes fall. Nora’s eyes were filled with so much love and sincerity as she looked into the eyes of Steve while saying her vow.  
I wish I had been as much sincere during my wedding.  I stole a glance at Steve, and quickly looked away when our eyes met.  
Was he truly over what happened? 

My heart sank when I realized what I really made him go through.
I didn’t talk to him during the short car ride to the reception,  I bolted out of the car to the ladies immediately it stopped.

Mom and Steph were the first I saw  on the dance floor when I reentered the hall,  they were laughing and dancing,  Steph was not a good dancer especially to the hi-life song that was playing. He stilled and looked around,  I returned the huge smile plastered on his face when our eyes met. He bent and said something in mom’s ear then made a beeline to where I was.  
“Hey beautiful” I chuckled at his greeting “what is a beautiful lady  like you doing alone don’t you have a boyfriend?” I shrugged struggling to keep a straight face,  “Hope no one will beat me up when I dance with you, can I have this dance?” he asked as the song changed to a slow R’n’B. 

He dipped his head down and kissed the little bare space between my neck and shoulder, he held my chin up looking deep into my eyes.

“Nothing really matters to me as long as I have you,  never doubt my love for you,  don’t dwell on our past mistakes, the past will forever stay where it is,  what we are obliged to do is focus on the present cos it determines the future,  I love you Cassie, that’s what really matters”
That was all I needed then to clear my doubts,  he loved me and that’s all that matter.  “I love you too” he smiled and pecked me on the cheek. 
I patted my tummy discreetly praying my suspicions were right. 
I looked to where the bride and her groom were seated,  she gave me a thumbs up , Steph being who he was winked at me,  I gave them a smile and looked around mom was in a  deep conversation with Nora’s mom,  her dad was at the other side with a bunch of his friends. Almost every guest was either from mom’s,  Nora’s parents,  my farm or Steph’s company, with others from Senior high or tertiary. 
I looked back at Steph who’s eyes were on me all the while,  I tightened the hold I had around his and rested my head on his chest listening to the rhythmical beat of his heart.  

THE END

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

Value what you have now, for you never know when you might lose it. 

ELEVEN. 

I heaved a sigh when I got home and there was no sign of Steph,  then frowned remembering what Steve had told me,  for all I know he only knew two people in this country Steph and me, and I could quite remember him promising to do business with Steph, so if Steph is not home why the hell is Steve here.  I ran to his home office and he was not there,  then checked every other  room in the house which also turned futile,  maybe he’s just not back yet and Steve was playing games with me.  He could definitely pull such a stunt, the man practically had no inkling of seriousness in him,  this was just a figment of his character I know he’s much worse. 
I rolled my eyes and did my nightly routine knocking out immediately I laid my head on my pillow. 

I was surprised when I opened my eyes to see Steph lying behind me with his hand draped over my body,  I blinked numerously then touched his face to  see if I was hallucinating,  I was caught off guard with the tug at both ends of my  my lips and the kiss I planted on his face, maybe I missed him more than I let on.

 I think I might have awakened  him with my touches, when just a touch wasn’t enough,  I felt his hand tighten   around my body then a trail of  wet kisses followed.

I closed my eyes losing myself to  the euphoria only he could take me. 

I woke up early in the morning and there was totally no trace of him,  I blinked several times trying to decipher  if all that I had experienced was indeed  a dream.  I bathed and dressed in one of my loose clothes,  a white knee length dress,  then went downstairs in search for breakfast. 

The house was very quiet, it was apparent Awura Abena was still not back and I was a bit amazed when I felt a bit lonely, the house was clean though. 

 I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge taking the bowl of fruits out, I washed  it with fresh water before taking a  seat on one of the long stools eating it as I  sliced it. 

I thought on how I was going to  spend the day. 

I called Nora but it went straight to voicemail,  I threw the phone on the kitchen island huffing in frustration,who knew  marriage could be so boring , I really needed to go on a vacation , I  ran back upstairs for my bag and phone,  ‘maybe I could find an interesting site to visit’, I noticed a note sticked to the side of the dressing mirror, I frowned in confusion as I  looked at it,  was I so lost in thought before that I didn’t notice it even though the mirror is the first thing I  looked at after waking up. 
I removed it from the  mirror and read the message that was obviously written by Steph 

I missed you honey wanted to surprise you with breakfast but I had an urgent call at the office I  promise to make it up to you when I get home”

Lots of love,

Steph xo


I sighed in both  relief and frustration,  last night felt so real I was a bit disappointed when I woke up to an empty bed,  this only meant he was really here, but what boggles my mind is the fact that I didn’t see him after I came from the club, was he at home then?,  I shook my head and shoved the paper and phone in my purse,  I’ll just have to find out when we meet. 

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Steph really made it up to me after we met later that day, he took me to a newly opened italian restaurant then treated me to a spa the following morning but yet again he had to leave later that day. 

I couldn’t be more proud of him and myself, married to a young affluent man who came from virtually nothing and treated me like a queen,  living a life that most ladies in my circle envied, was definitely a life worth living with pride. 
2 weeks on

I met up with Nora today and she looked much better than the last time I saw her,  she was wearing a white   midi dress with a white coat over it,  I frowned a bit at her cherry red lips and red pumps,  “See who’s here, the ultimate snubber” I said as I made my way to her meeting her halfway. The girl has only picked two of my calls in the last two or three weeks,  I hugged her tightly kissing her cheek then pulled away quickly before she could stain my face with her lipstick.

“You look beautiful” I said sincerely she smiled widely and nodded looking away a bit “I’m sorry for snubbing you” she said rolling her eyes a bit as we walked back to the couch “But I’ve been very busy with work and you know with the kind of progress we are making we work twice as hard” “I kind of understand I mean Steph is barely in the country I can’t imagine the kind of pressure you undergo each day” as if on cue her phone tinged, “excuse me” she said as she looked at  the screen smiling widely at whatever was written on her screen, I wonder if she was back with that her good for nothing boyfriend “So?” I asked when she turned her gaze back to me her already widened lips widened if possible, I bet  she would  have been a watt too bright if she was a bulb “Well I met this guy last week at work and I think I’m falling for him”  I forced a smile on my face though I wasn’t a huge fan of this supposed “LOVE”I still had to support her “Ok” I said a bit enthusiastic to hide the doubt I really felt “Can’t wait to meet him,  what’s he like” that was the opening she needed the real Nora (Miss animated chatterbox)  made an appearance and I  somehow wished I could plunge my head in the deep sea.
“So what do you do now? I mean I really know you Casse, you can hardly stay at  a place for long not to talk of being a  full-time housewife” I sighed dropping the charade I put up when she started talking about her new found love “I’ll be leaving for Dubai tomorrow” I replied, her eyes widened in surprise then she squinted them, as if I was up to some mischief “Are you going to  meet up with Steph there?,  he’s there to secure a deal you naughty girl” she gasped and widened her eyes again fanning her face “You are pregnant right?” I frowned and shook my head,  I was getting annoyed with all these pregnancy issue,  why does everything I do has evolve around  pregnancy. 

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

TEN 💕

Since our return from the honeymoon Steph seemed to be having a breakthrough with his company, he was opening branches in even francophone West African countries,  so I rarely saw him,  he was seldom in the country and even when he came back from his trips  he’s mostly at work  before I wake up, the annoying part is he works on weekends. My fear of dropping the IUD or complicating things hindered my plans but it’s been 3 months now and the implant has somehow made my irregular monthly discharge normal. Unearthing my old self prodded  my mind the more as each day passed.

Finally its Saturday night,  my body felt rejuvenated  from the week long pampering, I dressed in a  midi backless  body con which fitted like a glove, I had given Awura Abena the day off so I had the house to myself with the exception of the 2 guards. I locked up and took one of the luxurious  cars  Steph had added to his collection in the past months.  I had lots of options but tonight going to Vienna City held a lot of intrigue, I might be lucky with their jackpots or even try out the casino. 

One thing I loved about the place is it’s not utterly packed, though  Saturdays are  an exemption,  I walked into the club knowing I’d garner as little attention as I could cos my clothing was modest compared to others I walked straight to the bar and ordered my drink,  I nodded in appreciation when the tender  placed my cold drink in front of me, then turned to the dance floor were bodies were swamped swaying to the rhythm,  I could feel the rhythm pounding through my system the heat emanated by the  cold drink only added to the rhythmic pound,  the last time I’d been at a club was in Joburg and this place as much rivalled with the club I went.  My eyes moved upstairs to where the casino was, maybe I should try my luck with the slot machines then I can have   party really hard.

I looked at the people lined up in front of the machines and frowned in confusion then watched the guy adjacent me mimicking his actions, I pulled the handle when I saw him do same and sat up in my chair watching the reels rumble.  ‘What in God’s name have I just done’ I  wondered staring cluelessly at the reels.  I was surprised when I  saw money come out of the machine,  the guy beside me turned and smiled at me, I nodded back and happily took the money, it wasn’t quite the jackpot but I made 500 cedis and considering I  earned it with a much lesser amount it was worth it. 

“Would you like to try the table?” I heard a voice ask behind me,  I turned and it was probably a croupier dressed in a white long sleeved shirt with a bow tie and black pants,  out to convince me to join the game.  I shook my head and  stacked the money in my purse as I made my way to the dance floor,  I closed my eyes as I stood under the dim disco lights swaying  to  Rihanna’s ‘WORK’ .  

“I can tell your beautiful  body from a room stacked with like beauties who can’t surpass you” I stiffened at the familiar voice racking my brain of where I’d heard it.  He splayed his hands on my tummy thrusting  his body behind  me forcing me to move “Go on beauty I’d like to continue what we started in SA before your husband interrupted” I turned abruptly hitting his mouth in the process. My eyes widened when I saw  Steve,  I opened my mouth then clamped it shut again “What are you doing here?”  I finally managed to ask looking around like someone who’d been caught red-handed he cocked his head to the bar smirking as he removed his hand from his lip. 

I watched him warily as I walked with him to the bar,  then did a double check looking around to see if Steph will pop out from somewhere “What are you doing here?” I asked again frowning at the permanent smirk he seemed to have developed.  “The same thing you came here to do” 
  I rolled my eyes and squinted my eyes watching him carefully he signalled for the tender to bring us drinks then turned to me with the annoying smirk again “I’m here for business and I didn’t see anything wrong with topping it with a  bit of pleasure” he retorted looking me up and licking his lips, I shook my head sympathetically the guy will definitely get an A+ in flirting,  “And is this deal in anyway related to my husband?” I asked turning my ring so he could remember I was wedded. I didn’t miss the sudden movement of his eye to my fingers and the stupid grin making a reappearance, then he nodded.  That had me worried Steph never told me he was coming back,  there was going to be a launch party though I don’t really know what it’s about all I knew was it was making waves in the media was it why Steve was here?. I shook my head and drifted my eyes back to him,  forcing  a smile on my face. 

“I have  to go Steve see you later” he nodded then stood up too I frowned when he walked to me and held my arm gently guarding me to  the door, “Let  me escort you to your car” he whispered in my ears when he  noticed my resistance.

I managed to pull from his hold and sprinted to my car when we got outside leaving a surprised Steve by the entrance. 

Steve is back and Steph is making more money hope Cassie doesn’t fret, I mean Steph is making big bucks,  what’s ur take do u think she can be lured money and the gambling too😣

For Better For Best 

This page is in memory of these amazing souls Aisha Abdullahi Idris, Bariyat and Mufeeda  May Allah grant u the highest level of Jannah and forgive all your sins, along with all our departed souls. 
Aameen

Nine 💕

Mom was ecstatic when she saw me,  “Come see my daughter” she bellowed to her workers as I entered the shop,  “she’s the prettiest and smartest”, I widened my already tugged lips baring almost every tooth.  My eyes widened in shock when she pulled me into a tight embrace, I relaxed as bit and rested my head on her shoulder. “Welcome back home my daughter” she whispered as she pulled away from the hug. I cringed inwardly at how her eyes skimmed over my body,  I felt like my body was under an X-ray machine,  then shook her head. 

“How was your trip?” she asked as  we walked farther into the shop,  “Cynthia please be more attentive I’ll be inside if you need me” she ordered one of her workers as she ushered me to her office, I looked around impressed with how organized the place was, “I’m impressed” I uttered looking back at her,  she nodded smiling widely. My eyes came back to the huge desk which had pictures of her, Steph and I at the wedding and other childhood pictures of mine.

I cringed at the sudden fall of her smile  replaced with a small frown, “Cassie how are things going?” she asked looking at me worriedly, “everything is cool” I answered smiling a bit,  “When will you start working?” she asked again, this meant I  was going to be getting an earful of another long lecture, mom just doesn’t understand that not all women are career driven “I’m still working on it” I replied knowing answering was better than keeping mute, mom was just one of those women who never age,  she sometimes treated me like I was a teen all over again, she shook her head disapprovingly. “Are you pregnant?” she asked again looking into my eyes I wished I could vanish into thin air then,  mom is so anti contraceptives,  she complained that she was the only one her mom gave birth to and she counted herself lucky she was even able to have me. 
I swallowed hard feeling like she could see what I  did, I bet mom could have made it to the top security service in the country,  “No,  I don’t think so” I stuttered, she nodded “Mom I feel pressured by Steph already please don’t pressure me too” she nodded tightening her hold on my hand,  “I’m very proud of you Cassie, but I’d really like for you to work,  or is Steph the one preventing you from doing so?” she added  her voice taking on a worried note,  I shook my head in response “it’s not that mom,  you really know I hate working for someone and I don’t want to start now,  Steph is already pressuring me on this pregnancy thing so I want to  have a child or two then start something later on” she opened her mouth then clamped it shut and nodded, “I hope you really know what you are doing” she muttered, I slowly pulled my hands from hers and checked the face of  my wrist watch,  “I might ran late mom I want to go ran some errands before going home” I widened my eye when I  felt her hands tightly clasped around my body then relaxed in her touch again,  I can’t count on  even one hand the number of times mom has hugged me since I reached puberty, maybe my graduation and wedding,  she was too busy being strict and warning me of getting pregnant. “Take care of yourself and your husband Cassie, I’d have really liked for you to work but I’d rather you give me grand babies now so I can spoil them rotten”

I smiled feeling more fake than ever,  here I am a graduate only 23 who should be out there working like every other 23 year old girl  who is likely partying I missed that part,  I should be partying living the life a real 23 year old  is suppose to be living, partying, travelling dating handsome men who have lots of money to spend on me,  mom, I only married for you to get off my back and Steph was too good for me to give up,  sorry to burst your bubble mom  but I’m not ready for a baby yet. 
She escorted me to my car, I looked at her through the rearview mirror, she was still standing at the gate of the shop waving at me,  I smiled and bit appreciating the  strength of the woman who birthed me,  she might have been strict on me,  and I might still have a  bit of dislike for the way I was brought up but I can’t deny that she’s a woman with the spine of steel who has wanted nothing but the best for me. 
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Let’s take a moment to appreciate our parents especially our moms for being the superwomen they are and supporting us in everything we do. 

And please guys let’s appreciate the pple around us we can never tell  the last time we might see them. 

FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

I dedicate this page to ma dear friend Elijah happy belated birthday, we’re gonna make it. Thanks for giving me so much hope, opportunities and for just being you,  may the good Lord  throw bountiful blessings your way throughout the super  long years you have ahead.

Much love 

Meena 🌹👸🇬🇭

Seven 💕

Steph 

It seems the fog I’ve forcefully plunged my mind in was clearing up,  and it was doing so really fast.  Memories I’ve locked in the darkest part of my mind slowly unleashed creeping into my thoughts and I could not control myself. 

    I’m no longer the scared kid but it seems I’ve been scarred for life. I looked at Cassie’s  turned back then looked away. 

    The old lady’s words whispered in my ear,  it could never be, no torture or pain could surpass the one I’ve been through as a kid. I closed my eyes and pulled Cassie into a tight embrace warding off all thoughts of my past. 

    Cassie 

    Marriage, the life long prison I’ve detested since I was a teen, as I grew older my perspective on marriage never change but altered. 

     I promised myself a fun marriage life, my spouse had to be wealthy or wealthy  and had the potential to be richer. Even though I’ve never dated an age mate,  I always engaged in relationships with rich older men the only disadvantage was I couldn’t marry one,  even when I had such men at my beck and call who’d have readily walked down the aisle without batting an eye, I couldn’t deny the fact that  they were all tied up in a way, some had other mistresses, others   had wives while some  had kids who’d only be a nuisance to me. The men would have  probably     died too early into the marriage.  So Steph became my only option,  he was young, intelligent and handsome. 

    I didn’t love him but he was a better option and an upgrade to  the older men and even some young men who showed interest in me, we all foresaw a brighter future for him,  he had companies chasing him even when we were in school that only heightened my interest in him,  and he had no one. No ties to any family that also  meant I would be the only one who’d enjoy the fruits of his hardwork and above all mom liked him. 

       She knew how much I detested marriage so bringing  Steph to the house was a surprise to her. She couldn’t hide her joy she  called  him asew (in-law)  before he even proposed, how could I deny the wishes  of a woman who has sacrificed so much for me. 

    ***
    Steph was not home when I woke up, today marked the rebirth of Cassie Yawson. I went through my morning routine as slow as I could gathering my thoughts to the big plan.  Nora was probably at work now,  I took my phone hovering my thumb  over her number as I contemplated if calling her was the best idea.  With what  I had in mind calling her would be a huge mistake.  I tapped the exit pad and placed the phone down. 

     Gently slathering my body with my body lotion, I would be seeing a doctor today, go shopping and probably call Nora to catch up. 
    I was surprised when I heard movement in the kitchen for all I knew we lived alone.  My breath became shallow as I tiptoed to the kitchen I peeked inside the kitchen hiding my body behind the wall. I sighed when I saw a lady in a uniform with an apron over it.  I entered the kitchen clearing my throat as I made way to the dinning area.  I preferred using the dinning area to the dinning room, it looked more casual. 

    She turned around a bit shocked but smiled when her eyes met mine “Good morning madam,  welcome” I nodded stretching my lips in return. “What’s your name?” I asked curtly her smile faltered, I almost rolled my eyes when she swallowed “Awura Abena maa” I rolled my eyes a bit and walked to the table.  She brought all my favorite fruits the very moment I  took my seat and placed them gently on the table, I ate a bit of  every fruit before drinking the cup of creamy tea she had made for me. 

    It seemed Steph had already briefed her about all my likes before leaving. My lip quirked a bit when I remember what happened yesterday. I heaved a sigh and rose from the table,  today was going to be long day. 
    I went back to the bedroom for my bag and phone, I opened one of the drawers and took one of his car keys,  I tapped on my phone to see if I had any missed calls but there was none.  

    I drove straight to the hospital,  I didn’t have to wait in a  long queue since it was a private hospital.  I heaved a sigh when I finally made it to  the doctor’s office. 

    “Good afternoon” I greeted as I took my seat opposite her. “Good afternoon welcome” she looked down on my file and looked back up at me “Mrs Botchway I can see you want to have an IUD” I nodded in response,  “Are you sure about this?” she asked worriedly  eyeing my ring “We normally do this kind of things in the presence of your partner” “No  it’s okay” I quickly uttered before she could bombard me with another question. 
    “We will have to ran some test on you and  then take you through the types of IUDs we have” I nodded in response, as she rang in the nurse, the nurse came in with a pregnancy  kit  went through the process to use it with me and ushered me to the bathroom, my hands were shaky as I held it,  I was sure I couldn’t be pregnant but anything could happen many pregnancies happened even when the ladies were on contraceptives. 

    I closed my eyes after urinating praying to all I held dear to make the results negative, I came out of the bathroom and reclaimed  my seat, the next minutes went by agonizingly slow   I heaved a sigh when the  nurse finally came out with the test but I  was still nervous.  The doctor nodded and turned the negative test sign to me.  
    “Do you have a regular menstrual cycle?” Dr Jefferson asked after the nurse left.  “No it’s irregular” she nodded and wrote something on the file “what of your flow is it normal or heavy?” I  rolled my eyes a bit “it’s mostly heavy although I  do have normal flows sometimes” she nodded again scribbling on the file  then looked up, “Well we do two  types of IUDs here  The mirena intrauterine device and the palagard copper IUD, the mirena IUD is for five years and  mostly deals  with hormones whiles the palagard is  for a longer period ten years to be  exact,   but with your situation I recommend the Mirena,  it regulates your cycle and also lessen  the cramp”,

     I nodded  contemplating on which one  to choose, “which one is more effective” I asked nervously chewing on my lips, “they are all effective we are 99% percent sure you won’t  be pregnant with either one you choose” I  sighed and nodded.  “I want the mirena” I uttered,  she smiled and nodded then called the nurse in again,  I was given the loose hospital gown to change into,  the nurse helped me on the bed the pulled my gown up “this is going to be a bit cold” the doctor warned before applying a gel on my tummy, she then placed a wand on my stomach and started moving it around, “Well that’s your uterus she said pointing to the screen. 

    “I wanted to be sure if you had a big uterus cos IUDs tend to come off but everything looks good in here” I nodded and closed my eyes as they inserted the T shaped object inside me. 
    “You’ll feel a bit uneasy cos it’s a bit foreign to you but it shouldn’t hurt and we’re 99%  percent sure you won’t fall pregnant  with this kind of IUD, it has its hormonal effects but you can come over if you feel any unusual feeling”

    I left the doctor’s feeling a whole lot better, I won’t be tied down in anyway the next five years and  I’m living my life to the fullest. 

    ** 

    Sorry for the late post but I really need your prayers my mom will be undergoing surgery tomorrow.  Hope it will be successful.  

     

    FOR BETTER FOR BEST 

    Five 💕

    I couldn’t decipher what was happening to me so I decided to enjoy  whatever fun Steph had planned,  maybe letting this be a real honeymoon will ease the pressure  on the both of us,  for heaven knows I’d never remarry : enjoying this one to the fullest is my only option. 

    Today’s tour was nothing short of amazing and sad,  seeing the prisons and everything had a little damper on my mood but I lightened up when we joined the carnival. Steph bought the huge feather crown and tutu for me,  I looked funny when I wore it, I had to pull my dress up tying the ends so I  could dance freely. We took lots of pictures and videos.  “Let’s go over there Steph” I uttered pulling him to a tent, there was a long queue but I was curious to know what was going on.  “Why are we still standing here when we can be having fun” he asked trying to pull me away, I shook my head and wrapped his hand around my body “We’ll know when we get there”I watched as couples walked away smiling, and others with frowns. 

    I didn’t believe in this but it would be fun to  see how people make up lies about your life and tell you the impossible would come to pass. 
    I smiled and kissed Steph whenever he tsked I was getting  impatient myself but my curiosity was at its peak. 

    We waited patiently as the girl before us rose from the woman’s chair with a wide smile on he face. 

    I almost bellowed in laughter at Steph’s scrunched face as he took his seat he looked like he a child that had been denied his favorite candy.  “Aww poor baby stop sulking” I cooed pouting my lips a bit then turned to the lady.  “Ah I can see you two are newly weds” the old lady said in her thick South African accent as she placed her stack of cards close to her, I almost rolled my eyes we were definitely newly weds our wedding bands were brand new even a blind man could tell we were newly married. 

    “Give me your hand” I thrusted my hand into her wrinkled ones and waited for her to speak “Ah” she began with a wide smile then frowned as her smile dropped just as it came “I can see so much bitterness” she began in a voice so small I wouldn’t  have heard if I wasn’t so attentive, then crossed a look at Steph,  I didn’t miss the glint of  sadness that crossed her face. She forced a smile  and asked Steph for his hand, he frowned in confusion as he gave her his hand “You are a brave one” she said looking up after she had studied the lines in his hand, there was some kind of message that transpired between them when their eyes locked. 

    “What you will go through is going to  hurt more than what you’ve been through but you are a brave one” she volubled.

    “We are charactarised by different motions,  we choose which one to depict us” she said quickly looking into my eyes I couldn’t avoid the loud thumping of my heart as fear set into my veins seeping into my blood and bone. My breath became shallow as I  shivered from the sudden chill that engulfed me. 

    My brain was  shouting run but my limbs were too weak to comply. What was happening,  I blinked rapidly when my eye met Steph’s did he catch on what the woman told me?.  I forced a smile at his worried face but even I could tell it wasn’t convincing.  “I doubt what she said is e-e-ver going to come to pass” he assured but the little waver in his voice was enough to tell me even he wasn’t sure of what he was saying maybe we were two disturbed souls who have only come together to ruin each other. 

    But even if I was to be ruined there was no way I’d be miserable like my mom,  this only  certified that my future actions will be totally necessary, ‘I’ll never end up miserable’ I repeated the mantra as I shook my head sideways.